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some one with past willing to put aside everything let go every single thing in order to...... 

boleh sahaja menipu konon diri xtahu.. tapi seringkaling kaki jejak dipantai dgn kayu ditangan dgn sendiri aku lukis namamu.... 

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for now.. i gez nothing that i can say or do to make you feel better for yourself, the reason u get hurt at first place is because you are the one who holding blade for insecure reason..

world is a small place dear.. u hurt others, trying to make an enemy in the end its all coming back to you,. play victims while facts is karma police never missed its rotation.. 

hakimiakudanzalimidirimu..

tanpa lihat raut wajah mahu air muka aku.. cuba baca perilaku atau gelagat aku dan cuba hakimi peribadi aku.. sedang hati ini hanya tuhan sahaja yang tahu.. selalu hati kata tak mahu sedang untuk terus hidup, berpura itu kadang perlu..

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merenung potret cerita kita, kadang berfikir tidak mahu merasa manis bahagia kerana bila ia berlalu, ianya berasa pahit pedih bagai luka.. dan bila yang diolah tidak sperti yang kita reka.. memberontak kecil itu pekara refleksinya...

hari ini.. jelas terasa seperti dibelot.. bukan pilih aku berfikir begitu.. tapi terlintas nya perasaan itu sejurus diperlakukan sebegitu.. dan org yang aku percaya tidak akan menyakiti aku dgn belati menguris silam aku...

ya.. terima kasih.. 
aku bukan berdendam, bukan memutus, tapi jauh dari kamu adalah jalan baik dari elak luka lagi...

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Penat sebenarnya mengerjakan label yang tiada nama bergerak dengan kaki yang tempang, melihat dengan mata yang kerap menoleh kebelakang, memoir yes only goin to hurt when u the one who messed up and putting all together back seems imposible..

yes i am mess, tapi masih lagi dalam limpah kurniaNya.. alhamdulillah..rezeki yang dilimpahkan buat tidak cukup tgn mengerjakan nya :) sekarang cuma memikirkn yang saya memang memerlukan someone to assist me, to accompany me...

but for now udyhajianur need a new platform to stand by its own yet still under a-nur.. huhuhuhu, dkt blog ni banyak melalut merepek dari foto.. so.. diari lapuk seems not legit anymore for me.

#udyhajianurfoto perhaps, for photos of event only.. working on it, link will be appear here soon.. hihi soon not soo soon lah... juzt wait huh...

whatifisadoubtonhiswillyousinfullybrat

What if you fall for wrong person of yours.. and you think its love but actually you was fully blinded.. you think you can survive, but love as pure as u think it is it may not align with what s written for you,..  



but i,

i will make sure to keep my distance

Say "I missed you" when you're not even listening..

hanya kerana  aku menulis  yang lampau.. 

whilehealingupandtrytoholdonsuddenlyourpasttorneverythingapart..

   

when u think that u are strong enough, then its the time u tend to looked back.. and when u do, somehow,. past is always going to hurt you... although you have paid such price for your mistakes, your lost or even your time, its not going to recover the wound it caused,.. forget? forgive? regretfully,.. this dilemma keep hunting.. insist to moved on? i have no where go?.

i am sorry, i guess, there is nothing i be able to say or persuade you that all i need is time and space, i know you might say that i am not being fair to me or you and only punishing my self for some stupid reason..

for every person that has their own past,some might hurt. in your case, u need help, and you looked at me and expect i am a healer,. you think i can help you,..  i guess, the person who needed help is me.. i need to heal up before i can help other..

i have no idea how long will i take.. 
or what future will bring.

for this moment and situation one reason i always believe in

some may crush and fall-in

some may hurt, who never believe-in
for every reason u have-in
there`s  a plan for you by Him...

“Dan Mereka Merancang, Allah juga merancang, Dan ALLAH sebaik-baik Perancang”  ( al-Imran : 54)